Hmph!

[kriadydragon]

I'm going to cry, or scream, or throw something.

Black Dragon's being a butt. First, I had the end, but no beginning. Then I had the beginning, but hated the end. Now, I don't want to write a sci-fi story, I want to write something fantasy. Except the stories I want to write aren't ready yet.

I have a "stewing-for-one-year" policy, in which a story I think up I have to stew over for at least a year before writing it. Until then, I am only to write those stories that have stewed in my brain for a year or more. The reason for this policy is because I was once in the habit of jumping on a new story idea without taking the time to really think it out. By forcing myself to mull over a story for a year, I come up with new scenes and strengthen the plot, characterization, etc.

So the stories I want to write aren't ready, the stories that are ready I don't want to write, and SGA fics keep worming their way in. My muses suck!

I'm very tempted to set Black Dragon aside for the time being - let it stew a little more - and plot out something else. And, of course, in the mean time, work on another SGA chapter story to pass the time. The only problem with that plan is that it's been a while since I've written an original work since Amrin the Dreamer (at least, an original work I was happy with). Though writing all the SGA and CSI-NY stories have helped better my writing, I still feel guilty about all the time spent on those stories when I could have been working on something original. Which is why I told myself no chapter fanfic until I wrote at least one original novel, and I would really like to stick with that.

I'm hoping that, sometime soon (as tends to happen) my motivation to write Black Dragon will return. Either that, or plan B will see fruition - writing a collection of fantasy short stories (I'm thinking with a mondern myth theme, sort of like what I did in Dream Eater).

We shall see, we shall see.

Comments

[parisindy.livejournal.com]

for me its almost become a fear of writing.. i am so worried that it won't be good enough that i can't get through it.. i never used to have the problem.... i used to write because i loved to write... not sure what happened

[kriadydragon.livejournal.com]

*Cringes* Oy, I've been getting that way myself. For me it's because I've become incredibly conscious of what people like and don't like in a story, and it's gotten me to start nit-picking everything (does this beggining catch the reader's interest? Am I dragging this part out too long? Is this too much information or not enough.)

The thing is - and this may sound a little wrong - you need to come to a point where you're all "ah, screw it!" and write, anyways. As soon as I'm done with my Secret Santa fic, I'm going to write Black Dragon and see how it developes along the way. What it all comes down to is writing original stuff, as much as I can, to have future books ready to publish as well as get myself back into writing original fic. And I'm tired of procrastinating about it.

[parisindy.livejournal.com]

i think for me its cause i have crap all for self esteem and i keep reading all this great stuff and comparing... its hard to keep in mind we are different etc....i just get overwhelmed by it though.

i think you should keep writing... your story sounds fab, and if you have been thinking about it this much its a story that needs to be told

you're totally right though sometimes you just got to sit down and write