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For the record, what I am about to say is not a sympathy plea or self-pity. It's just something I noticed.
It always seems to me that out of my stories, the ones I like the most get the least responses than the ones I'm kind of "eh" or uncertain about. To prove my point that this is not a sympathy plea, I am not telling you which stories I deem as my favorites and which I'm "eh" about. This isn't conrete as I like my "Hound of Hell" story and that did quite well. It just makes me nervous for my original stories as there are certain ones I like more than others.
I think it's because the stories of mine that I like the most are the ones I try a little "too" hard on, if that makes sense. I force the story to be a certain way or go a certain direction without letting it go where it will, and lately I've been having a hard time keeping myself from doing this. Usually the stories that do best are the ones I let write themselves, based on some simple or amusing idea, or a need to whump, not caring if it's successful or not. Then it ends up being successful and I become obsessed with duplicating that success. I try to ignore the obsession but it's always sitting there at the back of my mind, getting me to look too deeply at a story and going overboard with trying to make the story "deep" or "meaningful" instead of letting it be what it wants to be.
It's very irritating, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the onlye one who suffers this. You have a story that you want everyone to see awesome or unique, but it doesn't do quite as well as the story you wrote for fun but didn't care much about. It's kind of wierd in a way. Sort of like watching a pot boil. You watch it and it takes forever to start boiling. You leave it alone and it boils in what feels like a manner of seconds.
I also feel pride plays a part. You have several stories that do well and people love, so you expect all your stories to be equally loved. I try not to give into that (I get a little sad when certain stories don't do well, but I don't get angry and start bad-mouthing people. I mostly start wondering what I could have done to make the story better, which is always the wise way to go.) There will be great stories, mediocre stories, and not so great stories. That's just a fact of life.
Now that I confessed this, maybe my brain will shut up and let me write what I want rather than write something that's supposed to be meangiful and thought-provoking. Bad brain, bad! Back off you overly intelluctual muses! Let the crazy muses have their way.
On a completely unrealted note: Spider Man three is awesome! Go see it. Venom is my favorite bad-guy of the comic book world. *sighs contentedly* With the movie came previews for the third Pirates of the Caribbean. The previews alone ot my heart pounding. Man, I can't wait for that movie to come out.
On an only slightly relatable note to the above rant, I honestly believe there are more McKay fans than Sheppard (I think I've said this already). I'm not complaining, I'm just saying. It's gotten me to wonder (and don't ask how) if liking a certain character on a certain show says something about your personality.
For example, I like:
John Sheppard - SGA
Dean - Supernatural
Danny Messer - CSI:NY
I actually like both Charlie and Don - Numbers
Charlie - Lost (more because I like Dominic, who I was a fan of even before LOTR.)
Spencer Reid - Criminal Minds
Harper - Andromeda
Tony - NCIS (he's such a dork!)
Peter and Hiro - Heros
Apparently, I like smart-alec, mouthy tough guys with a smattering of soft-hearted geeks. But what does that say about me? That I'm a smart-alec lover of action with a side-order of geekiness? *shrugs* Maaaaybe! *grins*
It always seems to me that out of my stories, the ones I like the most get the least responses than the ones I'm kind of "eh" or uncertain about. To prove my point that this is not a sympathy plea, I am not telling you which stories I deem as my favorites and which I'm "eh" about. This isn't conrete as I like my "Hound of Hell" story and that did quite well. It just makes me nervous for my original stories as there are certain ones I like more than others.
I think it's because the stories of mine that I like the most are the ones I try a little "too" hard on, if that makes sense. I force the story to be a certain way or go a certain direction without letting it go where it will, and lately I've been having a hard time keeping myself from doing this. Usually the stories that do best are the ones I let write themselves, based on some simple or amusing idea, or a need to whump, not caring if it's successful or not. Then it ends up being successful and I become obsessed with duplicating that success. I try to ignore the obsession but it's always sitting there at the back of my mind, getting me to look too deeply at a story and going overboard with trying to make the story "deep" or "meaningful" instead of letting it be what it wants to be.
It's very irritating, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the onlye one who suffers this. You have a story that you want everyone to see awesome or unique, but it doesn't do quite as well as the story you wrote for fun but didn't care much about. It's kind of wierd in a way. Sort of like watching a pot boil. You watch it and it takes forever to start boiling. You leave it alone and it boils in what feels like a manner of seconds.
I also feel pride plays a part. You have several stories that do well and people love, so you expect all your stories to be equally loved. I try not to give into that (I get a little sad when certain stories don't do well, but I don't get angry and start bad-mouthing people. I mostly start wondering what I could have done to make the story better, which is always the wise way to go.) There will be great stories, mediocre stories, and not so great stories. That's just a fact of life.
Now that I confessed this, maybe my brain will shut up and let me write what I want rather than write something that's supposed to be meangiful and thought-provoking. Bad brain, bad! Back off you overly intelluctual muses! Let the crazy muses have their way.
On a completely unrealted note: Spider Man three is awesome! Go see it. Venom is my favorite bad-guy of the comic book world. *sighs contentedly* With the movie came previews for the third Pirates of the Caribbean. The previews alone ot my heart pounding. Man, I can't wait for that movie to come out.
On an only slightly relatable note to the above rant, I honestly believe there are more McKay fans than Sheppard (I think I've said this already). I'm not complaining, I'm just saying. It's gotten me to wonder (and don't ask how) if liking a certain character on a certain show says something about your personality.
For example, I like:
John Sheppard - SGA
Dean - Supernatural
Danny Messer - CSI:NY
I actually like both Charlie and Don - Numbers
Charlie - Lost (more because I like Dominic, who I was a fan of even before LOTR.)
Spencer Reid - Criminal Minds
Harper - Andromeda
Tony - NCIS (he's such a dork!)
Peter and Hiro - Heros
Apparently, I like smart-alec, mouthy tough guys with a smattering of soft-hearted geeks. But what does that say about me? That I'm a smart-alec lover of action with a side-order of geekiness? *shrugs* Maaaaybe! *grins*
