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Before I forget, because I will since my memory can't walk a straight line, I would like to thank those who nominated my fics for the SGA Fanfic Awards, and to those who told me about the nominations, which got me wondering why I hadn't been contacted, searching past posts and stories to see if I was, and discovering that I was contacted in one of my Flashfic stories. I would have found out about it sooner but the E-mail I use for LJ I don't really check that much (too dang slow). I really need to change that.
Anyways, if I hadn't been let in the know, I wouldn't have searched for the announcement and probably wouldn't have found it until too late. So thank you.
Although now I feel bad as a while ago I was feeling down because I thought no one had nominated me. Granted, it hadn't been a good day, but it was still kind of childish.
The thing is, the way I figure it, when it comes to writing or drawing or any of the arts, a little bit of an ego boost is required. Not too big or all you get is, well, a big dang ego. Just enough to keep you motivated, balanced out by a few kicks to that ego to get you to progress rather than settle. You need those days where you think "hey, maybe I am a good writer" because it's so easy to get discouraged. You come across stories making you wish you could write like that, or stories that either need a major overhaul or are just plain crap yet they still get more reviews than one of your fics, leaving you to wonder if people like your stories because they're well written or just because it has good whump. You need assurances in the form of reviews, nominations, etc. or else you start to wonder too much.
You also need those days where you lament your skills after comparing them to skills you think are better, and days where you wonder if your story was enjoyed just because of a single aspect (i.e. the whumping). So long as you don't get discouraged too badly, it motivates you to try your hardest in making your next story better.
The problem is, it can all get a little unbalanced, and you either end up with a big ego or horribly discouraged losing the motivation to write. It's a lot of highs and lows, which are irritating. Necessary on occasion, but very irritating, especially if you're having a bad day.
*Snort* And I'm just talking about fanfic. I'm pretty sure the published world is a lot worse.
Anyways, if I hadn't been let in the know, I wouldn't have searched for the announcement and probably wouldn't have found it until too late. So thank you.
Although now I feel bad as a while ago I was feeling down because I thought no one had nominated me. Granted, it hadn't been a good day, but it was still kind of childish.
The thing is, the way I figure it, when it comes to writing or drawing or any of the arts, a little bit of an ego boost is required. Not too big or all you get is, well, a big dang ego. Just enough to keep you motivated, balanced out by a few kicks to that ego to get you to progress rather than settle. You need those days where you think "hey, maybe I am a good writer" because it's so easy to get discouraged. You come across stories making you wish you could write like that, or stories that either need a major overhaul or are just plain crap yet they still get more reviews than one of your fics, leaving you to wonder if people like your stories because they're well written or just because it has good whump. You need assurances in the form of reviews, nominations, etc. or else you start to wonder too much.
You also need those days where you lament your skills after comparing them to skills you think are better, and days where you wonder if your story was enjoyed just because of a single aspect (i.e. the whumping). So long as you don't get discouraged too badly, it motivates you to try your hardest in making your next story better.
The problem is, it can all get a little unbalanced, and you either end up with a big ego or horribly discouraged losing the motivation to write. It's a lot of highs and lows, which are irritating. Necessary on occasion, but very irritating, especially if you're having a bad day.
*Snort* And I'm just talking about fanfic. I'm pretty sure the published world is a lot worse.
