kriadydragon | Writing Guilt Trip

I currently seem to be taking a break from my original story against my will, and it's driving me nuts. Obviously I was in need of a break. I like what I have plotted, I still want to write the story, I just don't want to write it right now: right now being the week in general thus far. And it's frustrating, because an entire week of getting more words of the original fic down is passing me by, and I keep giving into distractions. I even finished a fanfic that has been nagging me to write it for weeks, and I still can't work the motivation up to get more of my original story done.

I know that sometimes you just need to take a break from a story whether you like it or not, and it's not like I'm on a schedule (plus I whipped out a ton of words of the OF last week and the week before, so it's no surprise I'm a little mentally weary from it). I just don't like it when I have all this time to accomplish something and I'm not accomplishing it.

I think you all know what I mean as we've all had days like that (pretty much every day, am I right?;)) I guess I'm still getting used to this new writing behavior. Once upon a time my stories were a lot more simple and, therefore, easy to write. I'd whip out a chapter almost every day. These days, it's more like a chapter a week, depending out how that chapter flows, with a few days of writing other things or nothing at all when my motivation completely lags.

My hope is that now that the persistant fanfic is pretty much out of the way, the rest of the week can be spent hashing out a little more of the original fic, even if it's only a couple of paragraphs. Since I'm currently unemployed, to make myself feel a little less down about it, I consider writing original stories as my "job". So, of course, when not doing my job, I feel guilty about it *shrugs*. Hopefully I'll get used to it, because sometimes breaks are needed, and I know what happens when you force a story to be written when you're not mentally ready for it. It ain't pretty :S.