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I think it's time I took a break from fanfic and try to focus on other things. Lately - maybe because of the mood I've been in or maybe it's just time for a change - but fandom and fanfic has been making me incredibly unhappy. Not for any one reason in particular, it just has. Too many major things getting to me, too many minor things, too many things that shouldn't be getting me down but are. And it's getting so that I cringe every time I think about writing a story, and the stories I do write I'm utterly unhappy with to the point I almost despise them.
I miss how it was - the excitement of writing, of posting, of knowing that people enjoyed what I write - and I'd like to be able to get that joy back if possible. But the only thing I can think to do is take a break. Hopefully, by stepping back and writing other things, I will eventually rediscover my enjoyment of writing fanfic.
I just hope my will-power holds out, as I have very weak will-power :P.
Anyway, except for my Big Bang story, another promised story for a zine, and another story I'm currently posting to FF.net (no, it's not a new story, just an older one I felt like posting there) I plan on not posting fanfic for a while (basically, however long I can hold out). Maybe a month, maybe several months - we shall see.
And I apologize for the pity-party. It's not like I needed to announce my plans for taking a break, but I think it helps to state it in a way that makes it more real rather than just a prospect I can dismiss or forget - kind of like writing up a contract and signing it. I still want to write fanfic, and plan to, it's just for now I need to set it aside long enough that when I do get back to it, I'll enjoy it more.
I miss how it was - the excitement of writing, of posting, of knowing that people enjoyed what I write - and I'd like to be able to get that joy back if possible. But the only thing I can think to do is take a break. Hopefully, by stepping back and writing other things, I will eventually rediscover my enjoyment of writing fanfic.
I just hope my will-power holds out, as I have very weak will-power :P.
Anyway, except for my Big Bang story, another promised story for a zine, and another story I'm currently posting to FF.net (no, it's not a new story, just an older one I felt like posting there) I plan on not posting fanfic for a while (basically, however long I can hold out). Maybe a month, maybe several months - we shall see.
And I apologize for the pity-party. It's not like I needed to announce my plans for taking a break, but I think it helps to state it in a way that makes it more real rather than just a prospect I can dismiss or forget - kind of like writing up a contract and signing it. I still want to write fanfic, and plan to, it's just for now I need to set it aside long enough that when I do get back to it, I'll enjoy it more.
